wow, first time went clubbing, quite a crowd today. saw quite many people, chocolate, sufen, xueling, xiaojess, mark, elisha, gordon and more. Around 7 reached J8 went to meet Karine, hairul & co. then bus-ed to potong pasir, bought liquor than they went drinking. I went to max well market to meet ruchin, lynn & chin's boyfriend;derek. slacked, than chiajun that gay came;D at first like dont know how to dance, thn ltr jst follow the music:D quite fun. (: enjoyable day, aha. than audrea sent me home. thts almost all bah. everyone dance till very high sio. haha(:

Fucking long never post, haha many things happened. Alright, slacked.
Yesterday went Geylang with Kailshen &Weeyang to buy ciggarettes, saw many gay & ahgua there. Totally lost of words, LOLS. 7plus yesterday went J8 mac to makan, with Matt, Yanfeng & Gekling. Saw Ifah&co. She joined us for awhile and went off. Than 13-ed back to prime, met Ks & Wy. 13-ed to buy, than went home at around 11+. Today, took back result slip, promoted to 2E3 . Slacked, basketball court opp. school... Till around 9+. Tristan came sio! , shocked to see him. like months never see him liao. He jio me go makan dinner at night, i don't want. Haha like evil sio me. :X Then he say most probably next year coming back bps as sec 3E. Don't know true mah , lets see. Hehe, played bball match, quite fun. At the later part i was like a statue la, stand thr bo move. get ball jiu shoot, lol. with one guy called colin & his neighbour. Hairul jio me go underage party. (: Karine & co. going too, hmm see tomorrow fun not. Ruchin heartie & chiajun also going sio. (: loves.

Oh my god, My End of year examination is so terribly done. :( I'm only satisfied with my Chinese Paper 1 & 2, And English Paper 2.
Perhaps, I'm prepared to drop into Academic stream...
English Paper 1: ???
Paper 2: 29/40
Total: ???
Chinese Paper 1: 47/70
Paper 2: 54/70
Oral: 31/40
Total: 132/180
After further calculations, I got 73/100 for Chinese & Its the first time okay.
Though I'm in the top class, but my results for Chinese is the lowest among all i think.
Maths: 62/100
Science: 50.5/100
History: 35/73
Geography: 38/100
Shit me, I'd flunked my combined humanities. I'll have to try harder. Now lets hope that i can stay in express stream...

SHARONCHNGHUILING; ILOVEYOU!
Help me think, readers ! Wednesday is the last day of school, but Joycelyn asked if i wanna dye my hair for free at Si Mei ITE. HUHHHHHHH, I wanna go dye ! But last day of school, not sure. Should i skip last day of school for the sake of dying my hair? Nowadays as usual, slack & smoke with the usual ones.
YANFENG UH YANFENG, CHEER UP! :)

Yesterday woke up at around 10+ , bomb-ed YanFeng's phone. Called YouHong, met them at around 1+ at prime. Slacked , waited for GekLing, she came. Slacked at the playground, till around 4+ , went to carpark slack. Joel, Jeremy & Xiang came too, {: they played around with my brother. Hehs , kept smoking. Joel & Jeremy smoked Texas red. Last puff, dared me to try. I tried, first puff i scolded "fucker" . LOL(s) , then aftermath continue with Marlboro menthol. {: Jeffrey, Matthias &co came, slacked. Then went to makan with Joel, Jeremy, YouHong, GekLing, Xiang & my brother. Makan-ed , then went to slack. Was kinda fun, as i played some extreme games. My arms are hurting, & so is my face. But my arms are more painful. ): Done by Jeremy that bully! LOL(s) , then till around 9+ Xiang went off. Sent my brother home, & went to SinMing as Joel's house was there. Drank there, HoeGardens & JackDaniel. Nice, the feeling is so good. WeeYang, YewJun came, then went together. Slacked, WeeYang & YewJun went off. Left Joel, Jeremy, GekLing, YouHong & me. Slacked, spoke some ghost stories by Joel. It was super eerie can, then i slept. I cried, for that boy. Joel counselled me the most, thanks senior counsellor. {: Good luck for your o's yo. {: Okay, then went off at around 4+, walked to Bishan Active, slacked there till around 6+ & the rest sent me home. Gosh, Joel doesn't likes people calling him senior. He says that it sounds old(!) Where got , its normal man! Alright, the next day which is today. YanFeng came to meet me downstair my house, then we slacked. Went to prime, makan. Jeffrey came, slacked. Then YouHong came, kup money buy cigg. Then left, YouHong and me waited for Jeremy. YanFeng went to cycle around, meeting her tomorrow then. Slacked, intended to meet Sharon jie. But something happened.. Never mind, don't make me worry okay jie. I love you the most, remember <3 Sharon Chng Hui Ling, You are loved most by Jesmine Chew Jia Min. Wo ai ni.

I'm so tired of my life, everything seems to crop up so suddenly. I'm glad to have these group of friends, Youhong ; Yanfeng ; Alexea ; Gekling (: Yesterday was a thursday, after school went to amk hub to settle some problems with chongboon sec one girls. Only dearest and me went there alone, after exams. I'm prepared to flunk my geography, aftermath reached amk hub. Saw them, power{!} . Guess how many people were there, around 12 people (9girls ; 3 boys) ! Power okay, that only shows us something! It only showed us that they were afraid of us -.-! Call so many people for what, only a small matter. Those boys also, -.- wanna interfere in our problems. Was quite angry cause they interfered, then in the end Desmond, ex-bpsian came down helped settle. Sua sua, then went off. Xiaocher. came down to help me, then she cab-ed down some more! In the end, just like that sua -.-! what the heck !, then Xiaocher.'Airen waste money to cab down, waste of time. Then in the end Huixin apologised, then sua . Walked to amk hub, 88-ed to prime and went home to put my bag first. Aftermath went to j8 and took mrt to Tiong Bahru, alighted at Tiong Bahru Plaza, then walked to Ho swee, went up to papa's house . Saw Dickson & Dion, my cousins (: Then didn't really chatted with them, they went off in a moments' time. I went into the room and talked to papa, i don't wanna transfer school to hss anymore. ): I don't feel like, as an urge comes into my heart telling myself not to transfer. And for sure, i will definately miss my friends in bpss, so i've decided not to transfer. But the final decision lies on my papa. So yes, i don't know what is the final decision yet, but hopefully i can remain in bpss. Dozed off on the bed, from 3+ till around 5+ , woke up. Took a wash, and papa told me to eat dinner. Makan, nice nice! So yummy, as yummy as before ! That's what i call home cooked food. (: Fantastic man! Then papa went off, to meet his friends i think. I stayed for a short while, and went off at 6+ , went to the basketball court. Played match , two-pointer shoot in{!} :D But Ray' son still say i'm not up to the standard ! :( Then went home at around 8+ , reached home at 10+ . Met my little brother at bus-stop, accompanied him to buy bubble tea & cheese fries , i treated him. :D See how good i treats my asshole brother. :D Then went home, talked watched and slept. As usual, dearest called me at 6.30 am , i woke up. Went to wash up and stuffs, then prepared till around 7+ , walked to bus-stop and saw Petrina' couple there. (: & Penny too. Waved and smiled, bus came and reached school at around 7.20 am. Went into the classroom , was quite anxious for the upcoming chinese exam. Thought it was going to be difficult, but it was somehow quite easy. (: Hope i'll get at least a B3 for this paper. Then after exams , met Ryshikah. Saw Yanfeng & Youhong thus went together to 9th level. (: Puffed, and Kahsiang' Gaypartner came. Aftermath, accompanied him to find his friends at amk, downstair his house. Then went to buy cigg, can't buy. In the end , waited for around half an hour his brother came, then i shout at his brother at a distance, " Eh step beng bodoh! " Heehee , then he diamdiam. Went to buy, his brother can buy ! Then went to his house, 22nd level. Puffed, slacked. His brother damn funny, laugh. Then walked to amk hub by myself ! Weather was terrible! , i sweat a big lot. Then 88-ed to catholic high, stopped there and went to block 217 to meet Youhong, Alexea, Yanfeng & Gekling. Matthias came with the modified bike, {: Then slacked around, Yanfeng went to fetch my little brother with that bike downstair my house. (: Met up with my little brother, slacked & puffed. They have nothing better to do, :D thus they suggested bringing my little brother to the barber at prime. Cut-ed hair for him , at least its better than before. Its something like Alexea, but the fringe gone ! Poor thing, ha. Then slacked at the playground , for hours. Oh yes , went to makan at prime. Then Alexea went off at around 6+ , baded goodbye and stuffs. The rest of us went to Bishan active to play basketball, cycle and volleyball. {: Youhong and me played match with two indian little boys. We still lost !, Very xiasuey! D: Heehee , then around 7+ Hockping called Yanfeng go choonboon mac, in the end say don't go -.-! Then we slacked, went to prime buy cigg. Went to carpark , puffed and slack! Sparring session, {: Then around 10+ went off , reached home and used computer. Meeting Yanfeng&co. tomorrow to cycle, bye readers ! Sorry for the lack of photos, i shall try to upload soon. Oh yes, boy messaged me :D I'm so happy, he say if i'm guai he'll dote on me more. <3 I told him that love him doesn't means have to be with him, we never stead but together also can :D Love himmmmm, :D

Boy,
its been 20 days since i love you. My love for you grows deeper & deeper each day. I finally realised what is love, i don't have to be with you actually. As long as you're happy can already, i also think what we're now are better! {: Like messaging each other sweet stuffs, better than when we stead then quarrel right? :D I hope we can be like this forever, you say i guai you will dote on me. :D You say next time when you have a car, you will drive me out :D I love you.

Didn't got the time to post yesterday, stayed over at dearest's house. Actually wanted to go over to membina court to meet weng guang, ray erzi & co. But something cropped up, so didn't went instead waited for Nellie at canteen after school, with Karine, Ifah, Ryshikah & dearest. Than Nellie came, we walked out of school, went opposite school to settle some problems. In the end dearest one on one with jazreel, half stick time, to say specifically it should be less than half a stick. -.- Than i think she play busok, kick cheebye. Laugh, I'm so scared that later i write down everything they come find me. " ): " LOL{!} , then after one on one, like funny. Sua already, then we say got anything come bishan find us. Actually wanted to go find Ray erzi they all, in the end Yanru told me to follow them, together go makan at j8. Thus i followed, makan. Nellie like very rich ah, ask us want eat this eat that or not, she blanjah. (: Then she blanjah us drinks, aftermath we makan finish then go toilet. Disturbed each other, said " EH THEY COME ALREADY! FASTER COME OUT OF THE TOILET! " LOL, I laugh like hell. Then went to bishan there, block 150 i think, not sure but around there. Met with Amy & co. (: Then slacked for a short while, called Rky then Ts talk to me. Ask me whether jiejie with me or not -.- , then in the end Nellie talk to Ts, like funny sia. Aftermath went to ljs to meet with Ts, Xinyi, Rky, Tracy, & co. Then we already told jiejie's friends which is Amy's friends, Raj they all not to come. But in the end they came, but swear not we tell them come want ok. -.- , then settled everything, sua already. Don't know if Xiaogirl coming find me again not, then the rest went to slack at bishan area. Yanru, dearest & me walked home, accompanied dearest to the bus-stop & jst nice 162 came, she went off. Yanru accompanied me to walk home, as her house is somewhere nearby mine. (: Then aftermath she went off and baded good-bye, i called dearest. She U-turned bck. O.o, met her at bus-stop at prime, then cabb-ed to her house, slacked with her and call people disturb. :D So fun , then called Alvin too, he like nearly can't regconise my voice and dearest's voice. Then chatted, i can't manage to concentrate studying, then talk talk with Alvin till 1+ like that hang down. Switched off light, slept. (: Woke up at 6+ , dearest woke me up. :D Then i continue sleep like what i did on Tuesday. :P Then nearly late, cab-ed down to school. Just on time, last-minute studying no use. -.- , i'm gna flunk my history for sure, see how's the result then as i can't do anything to turn the clock back. Mathematics was normal, like what we could guess, Mrs Seah's tricky questions. Alright, dearest's sleeping like a log jst now, woke up. Going to shower, then go makan. That's all. (:

Boy,
I've known you since 22o9o8 . My life changed completely after you stepped into it.
I've known you for nearly 19 days, i guess? o.O
You know i love you, (: I'm not afraid of loving you, as i know there will sure be many ups & downs.
I want to go through every obstacles with yous, being the one beside you whenever you're down,
Being the girl whom message with you daily, w/o fail. Being the girl in your life, that yous love most and forever.
But i know there won't be forever, I only know the one in my mind now, and everytime is yous . Not others, don't let people affect our thinkings can? Let them say whatever they wna say, its their mouth, it ain't ours. I only know i love you very much now, though we're not together.. I'm happy, at least we're friends(: Yous also say, its fate that decides our future. I'll let fate decide it then, most importantly don't care what others say. I'm always here for you, i want you to know, i love yous.

Jueyu:D: lol, emo? i thought you say, emo, dun waste time emo, go chop off your hands o: LOL! that's to raynerheah, &pengyouuuu(: thanks yo! takecare (:
> Hehs, Welcome(: Takecarez too.
♥ PRISCILLA™: taggggged .
> Thanks for the tag!:D
rayner: jesmine ; im a goodboy , i rock , defines everything , HAHA ! :D
> Eeks, disgusting. I rock more than you rocks. :P
♥/MONA: hunny ! jeez,geraldine and you was staring at me in chinese class? haha.
♥/MONA: loveyouuuu♥
> Love you too, Yes we're disturbing you !:D
HueyWenn: Hellos , view-ed&tagg-ed ~ !
> Thanks girl.
CLAUDIA♥: ahahahah , jesmine:} tagged ! <3 !
> Thanks for the tag girl(:
GERALDINEctkq: ANYTHINGGG, i love you laaaa:D
> Ilyt lahs. (:
junhao: =) tagg
> Thanks.
rayner: im guai okay ! roars , say i guailan , i go emo , HAHA ! im the best boyyyyy -.-
rayner: fine , i go emo , roars ! ):
> I won't care, emo all you want!:D You're the best boy? Did i heard wrongly? :P
Jueyu:D: HELLOOOOO(:
> Hello(:
JiA yUn: jesmine.. bu yao zhe yang la. didnt link me! LOL. =D btw tagged! (:
> Thanks for the tag, linking shall be done soon girl(:
DawnL: Jie<3 , link me :) I'm the another dawn X:
> Okay i know:D Linking shall be done soon. Ily girl(:
GERALDINEctkq: Anything ! Ohoh, i'm gna put the heart later!:D Hehs, featuring too eh, i rmb ! Seeya tmr dearest,Its only 2days since i last saw you &im missing you already ! Loveyou,<3
> I'm missing you too baby! Love you always<3
???: lol u break with him le. HAHA!!
> None of your business(:
karine: heyohs!
> Hello!:D
Jolene: hi jie...shock to c me here huh ? haha...link me plz!i'll link u some other days k?muaks jie!i miss u...
> Hi mei, (:
AGNES♥: eh HI sweeties ! loveeeeee :D
> Sweetie eh:D
GERALDINEctkq: You're in my house searching fr food now!!:D Hah, loveyou laaaa!<3
GERALDINEctkq: Dearest, i'm having media studies now. So decided t tag you. Love you:D
> I'm now at your house using the computer while you're sleeping like a piece of log now:D I love you too dearest girl(:
Jolene: jie ily..
> Mei ilyt(:
♥IRISA!: Jesmine sweettt. aku cinta kau!
> Ilyt(:
bpsian too!: hello just a passerby here hors. no offence dude!
> Okay.. (: Why don't you put your name down? Perhaps i know you too. (:

Today lessons went on as usual. After school, met Whatever. She needs to serve detention as she was late for four times already. Three hours!:D Accompanied her to the General Office. Saw Mr.Teo, asked me be a good girl & go school early as he thought i am the one having detention. Lols. Then i signed in with her. No detention become got detention, -.-! Actually I'm only late for school once, today like nothing better to do, go serve three hours detention for nothing. Aftermath, went home to take clothing, and off to Whatever house. Now she act one like English pro, keep amending my English errors. She whack me when i was typing this, anyone willing to help me whack her back? :P Ha, then tomorrow go school. She keep saying fuck me, like she got lj like that. Fuck me only got pleasure, i know she wants. But I'm unwilling to let her do that. :D

I just realised that so many days had passed, I'd not blogged for around more than a week. :S Proper post now.
A lot of things happened. I don't wish to say about anything which is related to my love life here, as there are going to be some busybodies, coming to ask me what had happened and so. -.-, annoying. It's also none of your business, (: Want know about what had happened ? Beg me, i may consider telling you. (: Don't be a busybody okay, its not good. :D Like as usual, went over to Hweelin's house to stay overnight.
After school, Alexea called me. -.-, got some problems. Say dearest & me spammed his blog, Zzz. We have nothing better to do is it? Hacking the friendster account, although yeah ***** & me did, but that was like 3 to 4 months ago?! Than now come rake up the past, -.- I think is cause you're not happy that time my Gan-daddy put knife at your face right. -.- , okay Never mind. Seriously wasted around 2-3 hours just for that problem. Felix called me, then i went down and reached membina court around 4+ , slacked. Saw Jeremy son, Ray son, Dylan, Jian Yong & co playing basketball. Thus i watched for awhile, than my sister called me. Asked me what happened just now, then i told her everything. Saw Wenkeat, he accompanied me slack and wait for Felix, Hweelin, Tiancheng, Tristan, Timothy, Peng guang to come down meet me. Then ton-ed at Henderson waves, headed to plaza sing. to walk around first, then go telok blangah. Saw Papa's friend, stunt tio sia ! He ask me why so late still around there, then i say go friend's house, ha. Than went to drink some water, headed to Henderson waves. Its so damn cold in the middle of the night there ! Morning went to Tiancheng's house, played poker and so. Fell asleep, while the rest went off. Slept till around 3plus, went to Hweelin's aunt house. Walked around, went to muslims house to makan and celebrate Hari Raya. The food was kinda yummy:D than went back hweelin's aunt house. Watched TV, then dozed off... Around 10+ , hweelin's mum woke us up, and we cabbed home. Bathed & stuffs, listened to songs. Then fell asleep, sleeping day. Then sunday , troubles started. Don't feel like talking about it anymore. Over, let bygones be bygones. I'm happy that boy is not angry with me. And I'm back, knowing how much i love boy. I realised I'm not used to not receiving his goodnight messages, his words, him playing basketball, him talking to me. Oh ya, actually meeting boy at basketball court on Saturday night, intended to play match with him. But i know confirm will lose, ha. Than i dozed off... Sorry! Let you get mosquito bite, eeks. F*** the mosquito man ! Than kept apologising to boy. Boy finally say nvm, he not angry already. I tell him i never play the dare&dare game anymore. :D He say i guai. :D Heh, than Sunday... I don't wish to talk about it.
To F**** ,
sorry. seriously sorry, i didn't mean to hurt you. hweelin told me not to break with you. some more I'm your 1st stead, i really tried to forget boy. but as days go on, i tried but i cant help myself from thinking of him, and i think its unfair to you. i did thought of lasting with you. but sorry. i cant help it. maybe your friends are right, I'm evil? if you guys want, then find me bahs... put everything, blame everything on me. please don't go and disturb boy. i don't want him to get into any trouble. and its not worth it to cut for me. maybe you can say i bhb, but ... just don't cut anymore. don't waste your precious time, energy and blood for me. find a girl better, outside there are many. (: and, yes. we can still be good friends if you want okay. cheer up, I'm sorry for everything i did. forget about those unhappy memories with me(: , live your life happily OK.
To Boy,
i really love you. as time goes by, i realised i can't forget you. i tried forgetting you, i tried erasing you off my mind, but i just couldn't. i know that you're those tiongxim types, but there are a lot of girls crazy over you. i just want you to know, how much i love you. when you told me you still remember my birthday, i was seriously very happy. I'm very happy whenever i receive your message. sometimes when you didn't message me, I'll feel so uncomfortable. sometimes when you don't believe me, i always tried my utmost to convince you. but no matter what, bear it in mind the one i love is you.