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I'm Jesmine, 14 this year in bishan park sec.
I love my family, bff, & girlfriends.
I'm so in love with bikes, photography & ******. (:
19.11.95. : D
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Wednesday, July 23, 2008Wednesday, July 23, 2008
I'm sorry. & Ya , i know myself the most. I know what i'm doing is right or wrong. & Ya, i know i cut myself & it's absolutely wrong. But i choosen this choice myself, i know some people had cut for me too. Don't follow me, i know its wrong yet i choose to do it. It's because i know, i really need some time to forget him. Why are my posts all so emotional, thanks people for some talks to me. Thanks xinni that lanjiao bin, for lending me a shoulder to lean on. I guess i really need a break, i really need it. Perhaps, you guys are right. I'll forget him, i'll get better in time. & He's the only love, i want. But since i can't get him, why should i brood over this relationship. Why am i holding onto it, telling myself i can't bear to lose him when i had already lost him. Tell me why, i can't bear to give you up, i can't bear to let go of you, i can't bear to throw away those memories of you & me, i can't bear to stop loving you. Why must you torture me, i really hate myself for loving you deeply. The letter i wrote for you, why must you tear it away after reading. Not that i'm jealous you're together with her. I give you my blessings, but i'm really asking myself why i asked for break in the very first place. Ya, it's my fault. I really hate myself, for breaking down daily just because of you. Didn't went to school today, having stomach cramps. Sigh, didn't went for judo again. Oh my, i think i'll get scolding!!! Help me! |